anyway.. i still really badly need a real job fuck ballys im about the burn the bitch down.. Im 22 years old i can't be working for shit anymore.. im so desperate to leave and find something better i can't do this crap anymore ugh

and technically today its been 3 years since i've done any serious drawings and im starting to give up on the idea of ever drawing again.. if by 4 years my muse for drawing hasn't come back then i see no point in continuing on..

so i've decided to take the teaching route since my hands are messed up from typing pmt or cms00880 on the computer so many times i think i've developed carpal tunnel lol

anyway i like clay drawing upsets me lol and for a new project im going to do some final fantasy bust cause i figure if they come out cool i'll sell them on ebay lol well the first one goes for my bf cause he wants a tifa bust so yea.. i haven't worked on it yet been too busy messing around with him lol anyway

i got alot more work sketches if anyone wants to peep at it.. they are not very good
i suck balls man lol i looked through my gallery and all i see is crap then again all this shit is old aand shouldnt be comparing anything but a turd to it

ugh.. its late i have my period let me be.. i hate my school i hate my job i hate this weather i hate carpal tunnel lol

i only love him.. and for him im going to come out of this pity coma and go to some people and like get out of these financial woes..

i get paid 7.25 an hour.. i dont get lunch brakes nor people cant or wont cover for me.. my customers are assholes who only care about themselves i dont work out i dont even like the place everytime im there i want to cry.. im hapiest when im not there lol i shoudl quit if it weren't for the fact that i have to buy my bio book and financial aid .. ugh ahhhhh

anyway its late .. i need sleep no more bitching lol